One year later: ‘Craigy T’ remembered
September 12, 2008
Our friend, Craig Thomason (Craigy-T), died on his birthday, Sept. 6, 2007″ age 31. It occurred less than a month (Aug. 8) after he was diagnosed with skin cancer (melanoma Stage 4).
After his death, I had terrifying dreams ” fire … uncertainty … violence … sorrow … ICU … wake … coffin.
My dreams seemed to heal me by walking backward from his death, to his illness, to the days before he was sick. He then became less sick during my night visions, and in January 2008 I had a dream ” looking into Craig’s eyes, I saw no sickness.
His spirit, through his sparkling eyes, told me he was better and no longer in pain.
So, this is how I’ve begun to feel about death as a result.
You may be desperately aching for all the loves you lost. Where is my family? Where are my chosen brothers and sisters? Where is my Kati Mayfield? Where are my precious friends, or my Jack Russell I’ve had for 12 years? You feel the death and loss, perhaps more than the ones you left behind. After all, we’ve lost you, but you are experiencing the loss of everyone.
Then, as the prayers for you and all the spiritual sorrow for your loss is poured into the universe, you feel healing, enlightenment ” a higher power pulling you through your transformation in the “Great Mystery.” The tears of all who’ve known and loved you, collect to wash the ill from your spirit. You are released from your pain to witness the euphoria of the unknown (but felt) and your peace is accepted. It shines in your eyes.
The people that dream of you, know that you’re in “heaven” and you greet the other “angels” there in divine celebration. The sorrow eases from those you left behind.
They are connected with you as you all wait to be reunited in the transcendental conundrum.
Sometimes we get a feeling, like knowing someone is looking at you from across the room. I’ve had these feelings, described above, the last five months due to my dreams. These feelings appear and reappear ” cosmic feelings of how we are brought to the mysterious afterlife and the basic ingredient and foundation of all religions.
Aren’t they all based the same unexplainable empyrean intuitions?
Christianity: “You should love your neighbor as you love yourself.” -OR- “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.”
Judaism: “What is hateful to you, do not do to your fellow humans.”
Islam: “Hurt no one so that no one may hurt you.”
Hinduism: “This is the sum of duty: to do nothing to others which would cause them
Buddhism: “Do not do to others what would hurt you.”
Shawnee: “Do not kill or injure your neighbor, for it is not he or she that you injure; you injure yourself.”
Different cultures explain it in different ways, but each belief carries the same meaning. The meaning of the “judgment gate” and passage to a greater, exulted universe through it, makes more sense to me now ” a persistent analogy of my dreams. It’s just a mystical feeling. I can feel it in my chest … I can taste it in my tears. I can choose to believe it, or pass it on as mere coincidence. Happenstance or not, I believe that dreams are a discernment of the unknown. Mine tell me to have faith in bringing good to the world. The celestial voyage to an enlightened world after death is then conceivably deserved and paid for through the tears of the people that love you.